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Unlocking The Air
fiction By URSULA K. LE GUIN


THIS IS A FAIRY TALE. People stand in the lightly falling snow. Something
is shining, trembling, making a silvery sound. Eyes are shining. Voices
sing. People laugh and weep, clasp one anotherÆs hands, embrace.

Something shines and trembles. They live happily ever after. The snow falls on
the roofs and blows across the parks, the squares, the river.

This is history. Once upon a time, a good king lived in his palace in a
kingdom far away. But an evil enchantment fell upon that land. The wheat
withered in the ear, the leaves dropped from the trees of the forest and
nothing thrived.

This is a stone. ItÆs a paving stone of a square that slants downhill in
front of an old, reddish, almost windowless fortress called the Roukh Palace.
The square was paved nearly 300 years ago, so a lot of feet have walked on
this stone, bare feet and shod, childrenÆs little pads, horsesÆ iron shoes,
soldiersÆ boots; and wheels have gone over and over it, cart wheels, carriage
wheels, car tires, tank treads. DogsÆ paws every now and then. There has been
dogshit on it, there has been blood, both soon washed away by water sloshed
from buckets or run from hoses or dropped from the clouds.
You canÆt get blood from a stone, they say, nor can you give it to a
stone; it takes no stain. Some of the pavement, down near that street that
leads out of Roukh Square through the old Jewish quarter to the river, got dug
up, once or twice, and piled into a barricade, and some of the stones even
found themselves flying through the air, but not for long. They were soon put
back in their place, or replaced by others. It made no difference to them. The
man hit by the flying stone dropped down like a stone beside the stone that
had killed him. The man shot through the brain fell down and his blood ran out
on this stone, or another one maybe; it makes no difference to them. The
soldiers washed his blood away with water sloshed from buckets, the buckets
their horses drank from. The rain fell after a while. The snow fell. Bells rang
the hours, the Christmases, the New Years. A tank stopped with its treads on
this stone. YouÆd think that that would leave a mark, a huge heavy thing like a
tank, but the stone shows nothing. Only all the feet bare and shod over the
centuries have worn a quality into it, not a smoothness, exactly, but a kind of
softness, like leather or like skin. Unstained, unmarked, indifferent, it does
have that quality of having been worn for a long time by life. So it is a stone of
power, and who sets foot on it may be transformed.

This is a story. She let herself in with her key and called, "Mama? ItÆs
me, Fana!"

And her mother, in the kitchen of the apartment, called, "IÆm in here,"
and they met and hugged in the doorway of the kitchen.

"Come on, come on!"

"Come where?"

"ItÆs Thursday, Mama!"

"Oh," said Bruna Fabbre, retreating toward the stove, making vague
protective gestures at the saucepans, the dishcloths, the spoons.

"You said."

"But itÆs nearly four already--"

"We can be back by six-thirty."

"I have all the papers to read for the advancement tests."

"You have to come, Mama. You do. YouÆll see!"

A heart of stone might resist the shining eyes, the coaxing, the
bossiness. "Come on` she said, and the mother came.
But grumbling. "This is for you," she said on the stairs.
On the bus, she said it again. "This is for you. Not me.
"What makes you think that?"

Bruna did not reply for a while, looking out the bus window at the gray
city lurching by, the dead November sky behind the roofs.

"Well, you see," she said, "before Kasi, my brother Kasimir, before he
was killed, that was the time that would have been for me. But I was too
young. Too stupid. And then they killed Kasi."

"By mistake."

"It wasnÆt a mistake. They were hunting for a man whoÆd been getting
people out across the border, and theyÆd missed him. So it was to. . . ."

"To have something to report to the Central Office."
Bruna nodded. "He was about the age you are now," she said. The bus
stopped, people climbed on, crowding the aisle. "Since then, twenty-seven
years, always since then, itÆs been too late. For me. First too stupid, then too
late. This time is for you. I missed mine."

"YouÆll see," Stefana said. "ThereÆs enough time to go round."



This is history. Soldiers stand in a row before the reddish, almost
windowless palace; their muskets are at the ready. Young men walk across the
stones toward them, singing, "Beyond this darkness is the light, 0 Liberty, of
thine eternal day!"
The soldiers fire their guns. The young men live happily ever after.

This is biology.

"Where the hell is everybody?"

"ItÆs Thursday," Stefan Fabbre said, adding, "Damn!" as the figures on
the computer screen jumped and flickered. He was wearing his topcoat over
sweater and scarf, since the biology laboratory was heated only by a space
heater that shorted out the computer circuit if they were on at the same time.

"There are programs that could do this in two seconds," he said, jabbing
morosely at the keyboard.
Avelin came up and glanced at the screen. "What is it?"

"The RNA comparison count. I could do it faster on my fingers."
Avelin, a bald, spruce, pale, dark-eyed man of 40, roamed the
laboratory, looked restlessly through a folder of reports. "CanÆt run a
university with this going on," he said. "IÆd have thought youÆd be down
there."
Fabbre entered a new set of figures and said, "Why?"

"YouÆre an idealist."

"Am l?" Fabbre leaned back, rolled his head to get the cricks out. "I try
hard not to be," he said.

"Realists are born, not made." The younger man sat down on a lab
stool and stared at the scarred, stained counter. "ItÆs coming apart," he said.

"You think so? Seriously?"
Avelin nodded. "You heard that report from Prague."
Fabbre nodded.

"Last week . . . this week . . . next year--yes. An earthquake. The
stones come apart--it falls apart--there was a building, now thereÆs not.
History is made. So, I donÆt understand why youÆre here, not there."

"Seriously, you donÆt understand?"
Avelin smiled and said, "Seriously."

"All right." Fabbre stood up and began walking up and down the long
room as he spoke. He was a slight gray-haired man with youthfully intense,
controlled movements. "Science or political activity, either/or: Choose. Right?
Choice is responsibility, right? So I chose my responsibility responsibly. I
chose science and abjured all action but the acts of science. The acts of a
responsible science. Out there, they can change the rules; in here, they canÆt
change the rules; when they try to, I resist. This is my resistance." He slapped
the laboratory bench as he turned round. "IÆm lecturing. I walk up and down
like this when I lecture. So. Background of the choice. IÆm from the northeast.
Fifty-six, in the northeast, do you remember? My grandfather, my
father-reprisals. So, in Sixty, I come here, to the university. Sixty-two, my
best friend, my wifeÆs brother. We were walking through a village market,
talking, then he stopped, he stopped talking, they had shot him. A kind of
mistake. Right? He was a musician. A realist. I felt that I owed it to him, that I
owed it to them, you see, to live carefully, with responsibility, to do the best I
could do. The best I could do was this," and he gestured around the
laboratory. "IÆm good at it. So I go on trying to be a realist. As far as possible,
under the circumstances, which have less and less to do with reality. But they
are only circumstances. Circumstances in which I do my work as carefully as I
can."

Avelin sat on the lab stool, his head bowed. When Fabbre was done,
he nodded. After a while, he said, "But I have to ask you if itÆs realistic to
separate the circumstances, as you put it, from the work."

"About as realistic as separating the body from the mind," Fabbre said.
He stretched again and reseated himself at the computer. "I want to get this
series in," he said, and his hands went to the keyboard and his gaze to the
notes he was copying. After five or six minutes, he started the printer and
spoke without turning. "YouÆre serious, Givan? You think itÆs coming apart?"

"Yes. I think the experiment is over."
The printer scraped and screeched, and they raised their voices to be
heard.

"Here, you mean."

"Here and everywhere. They know it, down at Roukh Square. Go down
there. YouÆll see. There could be such jubilation only at the death of a tyrant or
the failure of a great hope."

"Or both."

"Or both," Avelin agreed.
The paper jammed in the printer, and Fabbre opened the machine to
free it. His hand was shaking. Avelin, spruce and cool, hands behind his back,
strolled over, looked, reached in, disengaged the corner that was jamming the
feed.

"Soon," he said, "weÆll have an IBM. A Mactoshin. Our heartsÆ desire."

"Macintosh," Fabbre said.

"Everything can be done in two seconds."
Fabbre restarted the printer and looked around. "Listen, the
principlesù
AvelinÆs eyes shone strangely, as if full of tears; he shook his head.

"So much depends on the circumstances," he said.


This is a key. It locks and unlocks a door, the door to apartment 2-1 of
the building at 43 Pradinestrade in the Old North Quarter of the city of
Krasnoy. The apartment is enviable, having a kitchen with saucepans,
dislicloths, spoons and all that is necessary, and two bedrooms, one of which
is now used as a sitting room, with chairs, books, papers and all that is
necessary, as well as a view from the window between other buildings of a
short section of the Molsen River. The river at this moment is lead-colored and
the trees above it are bare and black. The apartment is unlighted and empty.
When they left, Bruna Fabbre locked the door and dropped the key, which is
on a steel ring along with the key to her desk at the lyceum and the key to her
sister BendikaÆs apartment in the Trasfiuve, into her small imitation leather
handbag, which is getting shabby at the corners, and snapped the handbag
shut. BrunaÆs daughter Stefana has a copy of the key in her jeans pocket, tied
on a bit of braided cord along with the key to the closet in her room in
dormitory G of the University of Krasnoy, where she is a graduate student in
the department of Orsinian and Slavic Literature, working for a degree in the
field of early romantic poetry. She never locks the closet. The two women walk
down Pradinestrade three blocks and wait a few minutes at the corner for the
number 18 bus, which runs on Bulvard Settentre from North Krasnoy to the
center of the city.

Pressed in the crowded interior of the handbag and the tight warmth of
the jeans pocket, the key and its copy are inert, silent, forgotten. All a key can
do is lock and unlock its door; thatÆs all the function it has, all the meaning; it
has a responsibility but no rights. It can lock or unlock. It can be found or
thrown away.


This is history. Once upon a time, in 1830, in 1848, in 1866, in 1918,
in 1947, in 1956, stones flew. Stones flew through the air like pigeons, and
hearts, too; hearts had wings. Those were the years when the stones flew, the
hearts took wing, the young voices sang. The soldiers raised their muskets to
the ready, the soldiers aimed their rifles, the soldiers poised their machine
guns. They were young, the soldiers. They fired. The stones lay down, the
pigeons fell. ThereÆs a kind of red stone called pigeon blood, a ruby. The red
stones of Roukh Square were never rubies; slosh a bucket of water over them
or let the rain fall and theyÆre gray again, lead-gray, common stones. Only
now and then, in certain years, they have flown, and turned to rubies.


This is a bus. Nothing to do with fairy tales and not romantic; certainly
realistic; though, in a way, in principle, in fact, it is highly idealistic. A city bus,
crowded with people, in a city street in central Europe on a November
afternoon and itÆs stalled. What else? Oh, dear. Oh, damn. But no, it hasnÆt
stalled; the engine, for a wonder, hasnÆt broken down; itÆs just that it canÆt go
any farther. Why not? Because thereÆs a bus stopped in front of it, and another
one stopped in front of that one at the cross street, and it looks like everything
has stopped. Nobody on this bus has heard the word gridlock, the name of an
exotic disease of the mysterious West. There arenÆt enough private cars in
Krasnoy to bring about a gridlock even if they knew what it was. There are
cars, and a lot of wheezing, idealistic buses, but all there is enough of to stop
the flow of traffic in Krasnoy is people. It is a kind of equation, proved by
experiments conducted over many years, perhaps not in a wholly scientific or
objective spirit but nonetheless presenting a well-documented result confirmed
by repetition: There are not enough people in this city to stop a tank. Even in
much larger cities, it has been authoritatively demonstrated as recently as last
spring that there are not enough people to stop a tank But there are enough
people in this city to stop a bus, and they are doing so. Not by throwing
themselves in front of it, waving banners or singing songs about LibertyÆs
eternal day, but merely by being of the g in the street, getting in the way bus,
on the supposition that the bus driver has not been trained in either homicide
or suicide, and on the same supposition-upon which all cities stand or fall-that
they are also getting in the way of all the other buses and all the cars and in
one anotherÆs way, too, so that nobody is going much of anywhere, in a
physical sense.

"WeÆre going to have to walk from here," Stefana said, and her mother
clutched her imitation-leather handbag

"Oh, but we canÆt, Fana. Look at that crowd! What are theyùAre
theyù"

"ItÆs Thursday, maÆam," said a large, red-faced, smiling man just
behind them in the aisle. Everybody was getting off the bus, pushing and
talking.

"Yesterday, I got four blocks closer than this," a woman said crossly.
And the red-faced man said, "Ah, but this is Thursday."

"Fifteen thousand last time," said somebody.
And somebody else said, "Fifty, fifty thousand today!"

"We can never get near the Square. I donÆt think we should try,"
Bruna told her daughter as they squeezed into the crowd outside the bus door.

"You stay with me, donÆt let go and donÆt worry," said the student of
Early Romantic Poetry, a tall, resolute young woman, and she took her
motherÆs hand in a firm grasp. "It doesnÆt really matter where we get, but it
would be fun if you could see the Square. LetÆs try. LetÆs go round behind the
post office."

Everybody was trying to go in the same direction. Stefana and Bruna
got across one street by dodging and stopping and pushing gently, then
turning against the flow, they trotted down a nearly empty alley, cut across
the cobbled court in back of the Central Post Office and rejoined an even
thicker crowd moving slowly down a wide street and out from between the
buildings. "There, thereÆs the palace, see!" said Stefana, who could see it,
being taller. "This is as far as weÆll get except by osmosis." They practiced
osmosis, which necessitated letting go of each otherÆs hands and made Bruna
unhappy.

"This is far enough, this is fine here," Bruna kept saying. "I can see
everything. ThereÆs the roof of the palace. NothingÆs going to happen, is it? I
mean, will anybody speak?" It was not what she meant, but she did not want
to shame her daughter with her fear, her daughter who had not been alive
when the stones turned to rubies. And she spoke quietly because although
there were so many people pressed and pressing into Roukh Square, they
were not noisy. They talked to one another in ordinary, quiet voices. Only now
and then, somebody down nearer the palace shouted out a name, and then
many other voices would repeat it with a roll and crash like a wave breaking.
Then they would be quiet again, murmuring vastly, like the sea between big
waves.

The streetlights had come on. Roukh Square was sparsely lighted by
tall, old cast-iron standards with double globes that shed a soft light high in
the air. Through that serene light, which seemed to darken the sky, came
drifting small, dry flecks of snow.

The flecks melted to droplets on StefanaÆs dark short hair and on the
scarf Bruna had tied over her fair short hair to keep her ears warm.
When Stefana stopped at last, Bruna stood up as tall as she could, and
because they were standing on the highest edge of the Square, in front of the
old dispensary, by craning, she could see the great crowd, the faces like
snowflakes, countless. She saw the evening darkening, the snow falling, and
no way out, and no way home. She was lost in the forest. The palace, whose
few lighted windows shone dully above the crowd, was silent. No one came
out, no one went in. It was the seat of government; it held the power. It was
the powerhouse, the powder magazine, the bomb. Power had been
compressed, jammed into those old reddish walls, packed and forced into
them over years, over centuries, till if it exploded, it would burst with horrible
violence, hurling pointed shards of stone, And out here in the twilight, in the
open, there was nothing but soft faces with shining eyes, soft little breasts and
stomachs and thighs protected only by bits of cloth.
She looked down at her feet on the pavement. They were cold. She
would have worn her boots if she had thought it was going to snow, if Fana
hadnÆt hurried her so. She felt cold, lost, lonely to the point of tears. She set
her jaw and set her lips and stood firm on her cold feet on the cold stone.
There was a sound, sparse, sparkling, faint, like the snow crystals. The
crowd had gone quite silent, swept by low laughing murmurs, and through the
silence ran that small, discontinuous silvery sound.

"What is that?" asked Bruna, beginning to smile. "Why are they doing
that?"


This is a committee meeting. Surely you donÆt want me to describe a
committee meeting? It meets as usual on Friday at I I in the morning in the
basement of the Economics Building. At 11 on Friday night, however, it is still
meeting, and there are a good many onlookers, several million, in fact, thanks
to the foreigner with the camera, a television camera with a long snout, a
one-eyed snout that peers and sucks up what it sees. The cameraman focuses
for a long time on the tall dark-haired girl who speaks so eloquently in favor of
a certain decision concerning bringing a certain man back to the capital. But
the millions of onlookers will not understand her argument, which is spoken in
her obscure language and is not translated for them. All they will know is how
the eye snout of the camera lingered on her young face, sticking it.


This is a love story. Two hours later, the cameraman was long gone,
but the committee was still meeting.

"No, listen," she said, "seriously, this is the moment when the betrayal
is always made. Free elections, yes; but if we donÆt look past that now, when
will we? And whoÆll do it? Are we a country or a client state changing patrons?"

"You have to go one step at a time, consolidatingù"

"When the dam breaks? You have to shoot the rapids! All at once!"

"ItÆs a matter of choosing directionù"

"Exactly, direction. Not being carried senselessly by events."

"But all the events are sweeping in one direction."

"They always do. Back! YouÆll see!"

"Sweeping to what, to dependence on the West instead of the East,
like Fana said?"

"Dependence is inevitable-realignment, but not occupationù"

"The hell it wonÆt be occupation! Occupation by money, materialism,
their markets, their values. You donÆt think we can hold out against them, do
you? WhatÆs social justice to a color-TV set? That battleÆs lost before itÆs
fought. Where do we stand?"

"Where we always stood. In an absolutely untenable position."

"HeÆs right. Seriously, we are exactly where we always were. Nobody
else is. We are. They have caught up with us, for a moment, for this moment,
and so we can act. The untenable position is the center of power. Now. We can
act now."

"To prevent color-TVzation? How? The damÆs broken! The goodies
come flooding in. And we drown in them."

"Not if we establish the direction, the true direction, right nowù"

"But will Rege listen to us? Why are. we turning back when we should
be going forward? If weù"

"We have to establishù"

"No! We have to act! Freedom can be established only in the moment
of freedomù"
They were all shouting at once in their hoarse, worn-out voices. They
had all been talking and listening and drinking bad coffee and living for days,
for weeks, on love. Yes, on love; these are loversÆ quarrels. It is for love that
he pleads, it is for love that she rages. It was always for love. ThatÆs why the
camera snout came poking and sucking into this dirty basement room where
the lovers meet. It craves love, the sight of love; for if you canÆt have the real
thing, you can watch it on TV, and soon you donÆt know the real thing from the
images on the little screen where everything, as he said, can be done in two
seconds. But the lovers know the difference.


This is a fairy tale, and you know that in the fairy tale, after it says
that they lived happily ever after, there is no after. The evil enchantment was
broken; the good servant received half the kingdom as his reward; the king
ruled long and well. Remember the moment when the betrayal is made, and
ask no questions. Do not ask if the poisoned fields grew white again with
grain. Do not ask if the leaves of the forests grew green that spring. Do not
ask what the maiden received as her reward. Remember the tale of Koshchey
the Deathless, whose life was in a needle, and the needle was in an egg, and
the egg was in a swan, and the swan was in an eagle, and the eagle was in a
wolf, and the wolf was in the palace whose walls were built of the stones of
power. Enchantment within enchantment! We are a long way from the egg
that holds the needle that must be broken so Koshchey the Deathless can die.
And so the tale ends. Thousands and thousands of people stood on the
slanting pavement before the palace. Snow sparkled in the air, and the people
sang. You know the song, that old song with words like land, love, free, in the
language you have known the longest. Its words make stone part from stone,
its words prevent tanks, its words transform the world, when it is sung at the
right time by the right people, after enough people have died for singing it.
A thousand doors opened in the walls of the palace. The soldiers laid
down then- arms and sang. The evil enchantment was broken. The good king
returned to his kingdom, and the people danced for joy on the stones of the
city streets.


And we do not ask what happened after. But we can tell the story
over, we can tell the story till we get it right.

"My daughterÆs on the Committee of the Student Action Council," said
Stefan Fabbre to his neighbor Florens Aske as they stood in a line outside the
bakery on Pradinestrade. His tone of voice was complicated.
I know. Erreskar saw her on the television," Aske said.

"She says theyÆve decided that bringing Rege here is the only way to
provide an immediate, credible transition. They think the army will accept
him."

They shuffled forward a step.

Aske, an old man with a hard brown face and narrow eyes, stuck his
lips out, thinking it over.

"You were in the Rege government," Fabbre said.
Aske nodded. "Minister of education for a week," he said, and gave a
bark like a sea lionùowp!ùa cough or a laugh.

"Do you think he can pull it off ?"
Aske pulled his grubby muffler closer round his neck and said, "Well,
Rege is not stupid. But heÆs old. What about that scientist, that physicist
fellow?"

"Rochoy. She says their idea is that RegeÆs brought in first, for the
transition, for the symbolism, the link to Fifty-six. And if he survives, Rochoy
would be the one theyÆd run in an election."

"The dream of the election. . . ."
They shuffled forward again. They were now in front of the bakery
window, only eight or ten people from the door.

"Why do they put up the old man?" asked the old man. "These boys
and girls , these young people. What the devil do they want us for again?"
I donÆt know," Fabbre said. "I keep thinking they know what theyÆre
doing. She had me down there, ),on know, made me come to one of their
meetings. She came to the labùCome on, leave that I follow me! I did. No
questions. SheÆs in charge. All of them, twenty-two, twenty-three, theyÆre in
charge. In power. Seeking structure, order. but very definite: Violence is
defeat, to them, violence is the loss of options. TheyÆre absolutely certain and
Completely ignorant. Like spring-like the lambs in spring. They have never
done anything and they know exactly what to do "

"Stefan," said his wife, Bruna, who had been standing at his elbow for
several sentences, "youÆre lecturing. Hello, dear. Hello, Florens, I just saw
Margarita at the market, we were queuing for cabbages. IÆm on my way
downtown. Stefan. IÆll be back, I donÆt know, sometime after seven, maybe."

"Again?" he said.

And Aske said, "Downtown?

"ItÆs Thursday," Bruna said. and bringing up the keys from her
handbag, the two apartment keys and the desk key, she shook them in the air
before the menÆs faces, making a silvery jingle and she smiled.

"IÆll come," said Stefan Fabbre.

"Owp! Owp!" went Aske. "Oh, hell, IÆll come too. Does man live by
bread alone?"

"Will Margarita worry where you are?" Bruna asked as they left the
bakery line and set off toward the bus stop.

"ThatÆs the problem with the women, you see, said the old man. "They
worry that sheÆll worry. Yes. She will. Ad you worry about your daughter, eh?"

"Yes," Stefan said, "I do."

"No," Bruna said, "I donÆt. I fear her, I fear for her, I honor her. She
gave me the keys." She clutched her imitation-leather handbag tight between
her arm and side as they walked.


This is the truth. They stood on the stones in the lightly falling snow
and listened to the silvery, trembling sound of thousands of keys being
shaken, unlocking the air, once upon a time.

                                   ***